Spanky's Place

Life is such an incredible, wonderful thing. It is truly the most precious commodity I can think of. It is one of the greatest things God has given us. There is nothing on this world more valuable, more important. Except for how we choose to use it; or when we choose to give it up.

Tanya's dad has left the hospital, and is now in Hospice care. He already had a DNR on file; this is simply the next step. He has made it quite clear that he no longer wants any treatment or medicines (other than for pain and comfort); and that he fully understands the consequences of this decision. As I've learned over the past 20 years; once Leonard Hoehn sets his mind to something, resistance is futile.

It is interesting to note that during these last few days his ability to communicate with us has vastly improved. Or perhaps it is our understanding that has improved. Either way, we are now able to grasp more than we have in a long time. Make no mistake, communication is still excruciatingly difficult, but we are getting better.

Leonard has made it clear that he is now ready to die. Or more to the point, is not willing to live any longer. If what he has had to endure for the last 8 months can even be called living.

I love this man dearly, and I don't want to see him go. He has lived a long and full life. God has granted him the right to choose. I must respect his decision, no matter how much it may hurt. This is a very tough decision; but like I've stated in the past, he is a tough old man. It is his to make.

I will do my best to preserve and protect his dignity. He has earned that much. Still, I'm going to miss him.